Perseverance

I don't know how many times I have tried to write this post. I have been searching for all of the right words to say and nothing comes out right. It is one of those posts that easily gets bogged down with too much military lingo, whining and rambling explanations. So I am going to try to keep it simple:

The Army is sending my best friend/husband to South Korea for a year, I will be staying in Maryland. When we first got these orders I was ecstatic, because I thought I was going to go with. Then our paperwork was denied. We are going to try to re-apply once Jeremy gets there, hopefully it will go through. We are in another kind of limbo, so we are (as always) preparing for the worst (another year apart) and hoping for the best (us being together in Korea).

Regardless what happens we will be ok. We know that God has a plan for both of us, we just have to trust and persevere through this. Perseverance is a word I hadn't really thought too much about before the Army. It is because of the Army I am beginning to understand it's true meaning. To me perseverance is about never losing hope and never giving up when you are not only on empty, but have been running on empty for miles. It is the tenacity to say "I can do this" and the humility to realize some things are out of your control. It is being flexible with your decisions and the willingness to prepare for the unlikely; all while reaching for your goals. Perseverance is me saying that I will not only survive having Jeremy go to Korea, but also thrive, learn and motivate myself while he is gone. I will see the silver-lining and embrace it. It is me also saying, that I won't loose hope that I could actually be able to move to Korea with him. That I am willing and able to prepare for a international move, even though it may not happen. That I not only look forward to that adventure but will find my own way in a country I never have been in. I will accept whatever decision is made by the Army and then learn to grow from it. That is my version of perseverance and my way of being at peace with this decision.

Regardless what happens I plan on being better about posting on my blog... so stay tuned. :)